Sarah serendipity

I have seen her many times, now,
from March’s thaw to the heat of July.

She walks alone, even in a crowd.
None approach her, none jostle.
Her apparent path is always clear.
Is it by chance, dumb luck, coincidence?
Glances that wander to her
are as quickly turned away.

And she glides….to what business?

I am drawn,
and so I seek her suspected haunts.
Some days pass, then weeks.
She comes not, as if divining my intentions.

On a grey day I round the corner,
laden with grocery bags.
There, on the smokers’ bench,
this girl.

Several sparrows, a cardinal, and chickadees
flutter and settle next to her.
Long straight blondeness obscures her profile
as she studies her hands, palms up, on her tan legs.
A chickadee settles in one, and peeps.

Stunned, I stop and set down my bags.
Tongue tied, I ask if she is alright,
expecting perhaps a belligerent reply.

She turns her long head, and I see
the pools of her eyes.  Inscrutable.
There is no smile, but a gesture for me to sit.
In silence are we.
What will I say to this creature?

I ask her name.
Call me Sarah, she says, without an accent,
and the words seem to invade memory and stay.
Where do you live, I say.

She stands, tugs me upright by the hand.
The sun now comes of a sudden.
She tilts her head back, smiles finally with closed eyes.

Of a star, she says,
and I believe.

 

Pumping iron

When it comes to daily exercise At The Gym, a little streak of masochism goes a long way.
I’ve been told before that I like to wallow.  In pain, that is.  Could be true.  I’m no therapist.  When I made up my mind to deal with creeping chubbiness, the stoicism reared its ugly head.  I go every day, sometimes twice.  Don’t get me wrong, I am definitely not a jock wannabe.  After all, I turn 68 this year, and the doc doesn’t even know that I’m doing this.

The last time I had the flab problem, I was in my forties.  I bought a used exercise bike, started eating green peppers for lunch, and magically lost twenty pounds in a few short weeks.  Determination, ego, and Pain Pride did the trick, I think.

Now, in the twilight years, it is harder, and more dangerous.  Pace yourself, yes, keep an eye on that heartbeat monitor, make sure you go through the “cool down” phase at the end of your routine.  But boy, that pain comes on with a vengeance now.  So much more delicious.  Something you can brag about to your wife when you get home, stumbling about a little more than necessary and getting out of washing the dishes.

It’s an interesting assortment of folks that I see there.  Mostly women, and many of them put me to shame.  I rationalize this by saying to myself that they have probably been coming here for years.  After all, they have the spandex, the $200 running shoes, and the ability to jump from one machine to the next without a seeming pause for breath.  Then there are the, shall we say, folks who realize they have a severe weight problem and are starting on the ground floor to deal with it.  Gotta give them credit.  They are pushing through against pretty high odds.

All in all, I do get some encouragement from the trainers there, even though I have opted to go it alone.  Just the bike and the treadmill for me.  There is one thing I saw today that amazed me.  In my present condition, I have my doubts that I could even do one proper sit up from a prone position.  But, along comes a lady, probably in her fifties, who lays down on a machine that tilts your head and shoulders downward and your feet upward.  With your feet hooked under some supports, you do sit ups using your abs only.  Just freaking unreal.  She saw me watching her and smiled.  I said “that looks pretty hard”.
Again, the smile, and she says “I noticed you’re coming every day.  Good on you”.

Maybe one day I’ll have a rock hard six pack, as they say.

 

Salt Sea Calm

I heard that they will float you
In a sea of Epsom Salt
To ease away your tension
And things that aren’t your fault

You’re naked, with a blindfold
The water is just right
Then the doctors mention
“Do not put up a fight”.

“We’ll use you as a guinea pig
To get our readings true.
They will defy convention,
And we’ll be famous, too!”

At last you’re disconnected
From all that you can sense.
Your body’s forced attention
Is now in the past tense.

It’s only mind and ego
And the longer that you stay
You’re calmed by this invention
All troubles melt away.

picture credit to:  https://floathouse.ca/blog-archive/float-tanks-within-cognitive-science

 

 

In the iotas

He sings
behind dark glasses.
Not Pavarotti, or even McCartney,
but the voice can carry the tune with a little nuance.
There once were happy smiles and meant applause.
Now, it’s a smattering.
The discerning see, and look another way.
A voice graph would show,
in its interesting iotas,
the tremulousness.
Confidence ebbing.
Now, a tip of the hat, a graceful exit,
would be in order,
he thinks.

Idle hands

Not getting any younger.
The government pays me now.
Pays me back.
It’s kind of sweet.
When I can, I snooze ’til eleven,
have my morning coffee for lunch.
Too sedentary, though.
Geez, how did I go from 195 to 210
without noticing?
Anyway, joined a gym last week.
Against doctor’s orders.
Found one that looked the other way
when I put checkmarks in the health conditions column.
But, I pace myself, yes I do.
Some of them get a kick
out of this balding old guy with a belly.
But, I go every day. Sometimes twice.
Yeah, I’m tryin’.
I’m tryin’.

More cat trouble

just outside my bedroom door
that little beggar waits
it’s finished all the bowls of food
and licked the empty plates

it’s pigeon-toed and cross-eyed
a ghastly sight to see
belly drags upon the floor
and a gaze that’s fixed on me

I think it has a pocket watch
(it always knows the time)
and sidles to my bedroom door
upon the stroke of nine

anticipation’s in its eye
(the left one, so I think)
the right one sends the signals out
and neither one will blink

and so I rise, attempting to
ignore its nagging yip
I walk on past, it catches up
and tries to make me trip

every day I lose the fight
the wife, she thinks it’s funny
I think I’ll help it pack its bags
and give it bus fare money

she says we can’t have company
no more, ’cause it’s no use
if someone sees it, we’ll be charged
with animal abuse.

 

 

 

Crippled

A day, smartingly bright.
Smallish trees bend under windyness-
fishing rods tugged in unison.
Weeds party in the garish garden.
The fence, once painted traffic white,
leans into dishevelment.
Through its pickets, in time lapse,
the rarity of a skipping child.
A scooter-bound granny with a head full of stories,
and, later, the pilot of a souped-up wheelchair,
doing her death wish pirouettes in the roadway
while passers-by stop and honk.
All of these, like paintings seen through a clinging veil.
Seen by the crippled inside.
One more coffee, maybe,
to feed the prurience,
the insomnia.