people are speaking to me,
thinly and echo-like.
I watch from above, my love.
(or across, down, sooner, later)
“do you want another pillow?”
“I don’t think he can hear you, Karen.”
“blink once for yes, twice for no.”
I have trouble working those old fleshy levers.
such meat.
they say come back, they say don’t leave.
I see contorted faces.
but, really, they shouldn’t worry.
I say don’t worry, but can’t spell it in winks.
I am the explorer, now.
Of a different plane.
We’ll meet again
don’t know where
don’t know when
but I know we’ll meet again
some sunny day.
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On editing a post..
I dream of scissorhands.
In this dream, I wake.
I see shredded bedsheets.
Flying feathers.
Bulging batting from my mattress.
My wife stands by the bedside,
saucer-eyed and staring.
These new prosthetics…
She points to the front yard in black night.
Go and trim the shrubbery she says.
I go out, clanking in dangling pajamas.
I know the one she means…
It’s a twenty footer, my pride and joy.
I grew it from seed, I think.
How old am I ?
But it is unruly.
Top heavy, jutting this way and that, like a bad haircut.
I set to work with my digital glittering knives.
(Always liked the sound of scissors, close by the ear,
warm barber’s hands)
I snip and slice and nip, so nice.
What will we see, in the lights of day?
We wonders, yes we wonders.
After all, you’re keeping me in the dark.
Out of this world
My nickname’s Pygmalion
From those in the know
My interest in women
I never do show
To those I confide in
And have some affection
I am but a man
Who is seeking perfection
I pay no attention
Rejecting them all
For my birthday I got
An inflatable doll
But I’ve got a secret
That I’ll never mention
The woman I dream of
Will come from invention
I sweat and I tinker
Upstairs in the attic
Her form, it will soon be alive,
Automatic.
All silicone circuits
Endowed with a soul
Her life will have purpose
And mine will be whole
It awaits but a visit
From a Deity high
To give her emotions
And let her reply
To questions exquisite
Already have I
Composed with devotion
And love in my eyes
But, if wishes were horses
And Santa were real
My lover would speak things
I only could feel
Wish on a star
That I may and I might
See her movements so graceful
And regal, tonight
My nickname’s Pygmalion
They think I’m Australian
But they’ll never know that I’m really
The Alien.
Why I don’t pick up hitchhikers
I know. You can say these were just isolated experiences and I should not tar everyone with the same brush. But, I’m pretty impressionable, and first impressions count.
#1. I picked this guy up at the start of an 80km trip to work. Seemed okay at the start, didn’t say anything for about ten minutes, until I broke the ice by asking him where he was bound so early on a winter morning. He turned his head slowly towards me, like in the horror movies, and said he was going to a meeting of the Blue Men. That was his code name for his clandestine group of guys that were planning to invade the Houses of Parliament and hold everyone hostage with ray guns while they read their manifesto. He was serious. I dropped him off at the next stoplight.
#2. This was a fellow who worked in the same factory as did I, so I really had no excuse to shorten the trip. I didn’t know him well, so I was making small talk, when he cut me off and said he knew his family was trying to poison him. That got my attention .
I humored him and said, well, how can you be sure? He said “that’s just it, I’m not sure one hundred percent, and that’s why I went out and bought twenty mirrors the other day.” Ah Ha. What are the mirrors for? “I put them on the floor, all around my apartment, and now I will be able to see their shadows for sure”. I am not making this up.
#3. This fellow, with his little dog, I picked up in a blinding snowstorm. I mean, come on, you can’t pass anyone in that kind of situation. They got in, sat in the front seat, and said nothing. I asked where they were going. He just points straight ahead. So, I nod and keep on driving. A ways down the road, I lean over to the dog and say hey buddy, which way now? The guy must have got the drift, ’cause he hung a left with his thumb. I dropped them off at a roadside mailbox. They disappeared in the snow. Not a freaking word.
I’ve been in dire situations myself in the past, so that’s basically why I picked these guys up in the first place.
But, geez, I’m kinda getting a little old for this stuff now.
Overture
Somewhere I have seen
(Perhaps you know where?)
A parody of a grand theatrical overture.
The thrilling theme lulls to a quiet.
The room lights dim.
The brocaded velvet curtains draw slowly open.
It’s apparent there’s a double, even treble,
Layering of these dastardly drapes,
Each one drawn open more slowly than the last.
No! Three was not enough; there’s seven or eight.
Finally, in the hushed dark, we are treated to the sight:
A tiny figure, munchkin sized, in a dim grey spotlight.
Dressed in top hat and tux, with a monocle.
The Planter’s Peanut Man comes to mind.
He speaks, in a circus barker’s bellow,
Of the delights we are about to witness.
Challenges us that we are to give a true interpretation of each act
Before we are permitted to see the next.
Promises us that, at the end of ends,
We will be filled with comfort and joy,
And the long night will be worth our while.
Regrettably, my little story is but a metaphor.
Contrived to tell, in an oblique manner,
Of one man’s nightly entrance to the theatre of sleep.
The “thrilling” theme of his wayward thoughts
Begins to quiet, from purposeful exhaustion.
Still fidgeting, he awaits the annoying short circuits to cease their sparks.
The house lights dim.
The curtain tricks begin, but are a little different for him:
Behind each lifted veil, there is a disconnected story.
Each, perhaps, a little more mad than the last,
With demented forms, clearly visible to the mind’s eye,
That he must piece together and make sense of
Before he is permitted the comfort of the lower circles of consciousness.
A dialogue with the peanut man (or his counterpart) is necessary,
And anxious answers must show a cunning resolve
Before the little man opens the next curtain.
At the last (if he gets there), there is a soft and somehow comforting dark.
A pale flagstone path begins to appear in front of him.
It winds a bit, and at its end there is something with a faint bluish glow.
The usual pain in his limbs has gone, but still he walks forward slowly,
Finding an inviting sofa, in plush black velvet, emitting the blue glow of a gas flame.
He knows to lie down. It is pleasantly warm to the touch.
He listens to a most pleasing sound, like a purr, as he is enfolded
Deeply, in the arms of Morpheus.
Very nice, very nice
..we live in a basement now…
some say eww, you live in the cellar?
that’s something I did when I was a teenager.
a second class citizen.
how can you stand someone living above you?
what do you do if there’s a fire up there?
you’re gonna freeze in the winter.
well….
we have birches and maples and pines that suffice.
we have seven big windows, all covered in ice.
we have babbits and birdies and chipmunks and mice,
and the latter ones think that our pantry is nice.
a fire in the corner to warm up our toes.
a sliding glass door to a garden of rose.
a barbeque smoky, so nice to the nose,
and the sky through the branches of wintery prose.
and the one that we share it with lives up the stairs.
she booms and she clatters and does what she dares.
has two skinny cats that we think are her heirs,
and their vocal renditions? well, nothing compares.
but the aerial noises we hear from above
don’t bother us greatly, ‘cuz we’re thinking of
a family that’s knit (sometimes fits like a glove)
and the missus upstairs, she is someone we love.
Very Nice. Very nice.
We Must Learn to Die, a poem by S Francis
The Immaculate Depression
The girl often wondered where it had come from. Why was her life so much darker than yours? than his? than hers? than most? She grew up too quickly: she knew that for certain. The girl had seen more pain and experienced more suffering in her short life than, it seemed, others would expect to bear in their entire lifetimes.
She wondered if she was being punished – for a sin committed in a past life, because she did not sin in her current life. She asked God for answers and was met with silence. Books did the opposite: they shouted a thousand possible answers at her.
Perhaps she was born with a broken brain. Perhaps society made her that way. Perhaps she was gifted bad genes from her parents. Perhaps she had invented the pain, invited the darkness.
Perhaps if she had been born a boy, she wouldn’t feel…
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Joshua’s choice
I had a brother…..I have a brother!
Michael and I were separated during the great invasion of 2067. World communications had been disrupted, or destroyed altogether. The last I knew, he had been working in the space program. There were missions to Mars that had taken flight before and after the invasion, but I did not know if he was involved with them. Word of mouth had it that some of the missions were lost, and I had feared the worst.
Khostra did indeed return to us at dusk of my second day with them. After “speaking” to Raymond and some of his group, she signaled for me to come and sit. As before, we joined hands. My surroundings greyed out, and I began to feel excited, expectant, and very alert.
I cannot render the name of her people into language, so I will call them Plejarens, a reference to their place of origin.
She began by telling me that she had been in communication with a group of her people who had returned to Mars, after its great calamity, to collect their dead and to search for possible survivors. Unexpectedly, they found a colony of men, women, and children. The two peoples had met, and, through a young girl who was a perfect empath, communication had been established. When the Plejarens found that the colony was in peril because of the events on Earth, they proposed to rescue them by offering safe passage to a new home in the stars. Fully two thirds of the settlers decided to go. The hundred or so remaining believed they had the stuff to make the colony survive, and, in time, prosper.
Before their departure, the Plejarens told the colonists that ancient settlers from the Pleiades still remained on Earth, but were preparing to leave. Realizing that communication with them might be possible, the colony drew up a list of the names of every single person on Mars, in the hopes that some of their kin still surviving back home would know their fate.
My brother’s name was on that list, but my joy was tempered. Michael was one of those who had left for the unknown.
In the here and now, on this sick old Earth, many of the Plejarens were leaving. My group of fellows had decided, almost to a man, to go with them.
But, Khostra and some of her hundreds would remain. They had a plan. One whose success was uncertain. One whose fulfillment might take a lifetime of men. The machinery was already in place.
They were going to terraform Terra. My home. My life. My Earth.
In the morning, I said my goodbyes…..to Raymond and his band of explorers.
I would stay. I would help. I would remember Michael.
Earth, Mars, and beyond.
“Raymond, before you ask, I know who they are, where they have been, and where they are going. I know, perhaps, why you are all so happy, but I am puzzled as to why there’s so little dissention amongst you….I’ve been told things that amaze me, excite me and fill me with awe.”
Raymond smiled, put a hand upon my shoulder, and said “Yes, we’re all going, Joshua. But you knew that.” I fell silent, and he motioned for us to sit at a small table, the private corner.
I related to him how Khostra had imbued my dreams.
Her people were of an antiquity that we cannot encompass. One that even their own scribes fall short of in their stories, ending at a guess. Their origin was in the star cluster we know as the Pleiades. Over millions of years, their civilization grew in power and influence, and they began a push to explore their known universe. Of their ancient homes, our Earth was one, until the great calamity of the Cretaceous period. Their numbers were decimated, and those that remained fled in search of salvation. Some had settled on the planet Mars. The hearts of others desired a return to the lands of their peoples’ birth.
The Martian choice proved well for the new settlers, who prospered for millennia. In the end, as we know, that planet became desolate after losing almost all of its atmosphere and water, and they had no natural protection against asteroid and meteor strikes. Over hundreds of years, they prepared their great leaving, most heading across the void to the Pleiades. Some few chose to return to Earth, found it to be habitable again, and stayed. They became teachers of men when humanity sprang from the dust. But their numbers eventually dwindled, and those that lived on became secretive, building underground bases that few had stumbled upon but had somehow forgotten.
And now, in this hour of Earth’s shame and destruction, they were leaving once again.
But not all.
Khostra and some of her hundreds would remain. They had a plan. I held a hope after these last lonely years. I thought I had lost my brother in this time of our world’s chaos. In her magic, Khostra knew that this was not so. She had more to tell me….
to be continued…..
